Hi world. im the person that has been in many of the blogs you read. i am the best friend that is loved in more then one way. my name is Nick. i am loved by a an amazing girl. a girl that really deserves the world and then some. she is a person that has shown me more love and friendship then any other person. she is a person that loves me more then anything. she is also the person that is hurt many times for reason that are more then fucked up. we have been friends for a long time. i cant even look back and think of a time that we wernt. the Truth is. i love her to. this love is not how you love a family member or even some one you want to date. i love her in a way that i never new was there. she has helpped me threw things that if not for her i dont no were id be. she has done things that no other person has. she is a careing and beautiful person, and many times i find myself wishing that i loved her in the way she wants. but the truth is i dont. im not saying i dont love her. just not that way. and i wish i did. because she is the perfect girl. shes funny, great to be around, and has one of the best personalitys iv ever met. its not that i dont care for her or even that i dont try. its simply that i dont have those feelings. there not somthing i can just turn on. if i could. i would of a long time ago. and hurts me that i cant. but i hold her close as a friend. because i rather have her as my closest friend then nothing at all. i cant count how many times iv hurt her. and i cant count how many times i never tryed. i love her and always will. and still wish that one day i will feel the same for her as she does for me. Harlie i love you more then you really know. that will always be true. Love Nicholas
